Thursday, July 29, 2010

「过客」

如果我只是「过客」,请不要对我好!

如果我真的很不重要,如果我只是你生命中的过客
那么请你,请你不要对我好,
不要让我发现自己已经习惯你、依赖你到无法自拔..


从一开始,我只是陪你走过一段人生的小路程。
如果注定会分离,就别让我去抽离这种习惯!
因为伤不起,因为承受不起..
也许曾经想过封闭起自己,
只是遇到了你,以及你们,
让我觉得有支撑下去的勇气!
可是有的时候真的是太在乎,太容易受伤了..
不经意的知道很多..


是什么感觉呢?就像自己落水了,然后在绝望的那一刻,
有一只手伸过来带给我生的希望,
就在我真的真的想要把自己生命,
所有的希望交个那个人的时候,
却丢下我走了,任由我往水里沉..
从天堂掉下地狱..
知不知道,你真的对我是很重要,很重要的,
但是当我知道原来你不曾像我这样想过,
当我知道你根本就不曾在乎过,
或者把我当一个玩耍的工具时,
才觉得自己是真的傻,真的笨吧..



像以前遇到的很多人,说着很好听很好听的话,
让我以为自己仿佛是他的整个世界,
可是就要去相信去接受的时候,
却让我知道,原来一切都是假的..
为什么我拼命告诉自己不能轻易相信别人?
却还是选择了相信。我相信的人,
你对我很重要,或许我是真的没有长大,
所以我喜欢去相信你,去依赖你..
比其他人更在乎你的一言一行,也许你不曾感觉到,
但那是真的,那种感情,跟爱情,友情,亲情都没有关系..
特别得说不出来..


有一天,你出什么事了,我也会焦虑会害怕,
有一天,自己很难过很难过了,想要逃的时候,也怕你会担心..
把你当作我生命中很重要的人,但是有一天如果你不管我了
丢下我了,连话都不想跟我说了,也许不仅仅是难过,还有


如果我真的是无所谓有无所谓无的,
那么从一开始就别对我好,
因为也许你一点点的温暖就会想让我拥有整个太阳..
不要给我施舍的好,不要给我同情的好,一旦我习惯了这些好,
当你转身即走的时候,留下的除了一道道伤痕还有什么呢..?
这是自己曾经很想说的话,现在转过来..
现在想来,这只是青春的必经之路,
有痛苦,有甜蜜,回过头来看,
留下的只是淡淡的回忆... ..

Get this artical from Facebook....
So meaningful...
It does'nt mean anything to me..
So don't misunderstanding ya^^

MONEY!!! WHERE ARE YOU??

Dunno why since I start work...
I become more money minded...
My mom said me like that...
This time is the 3rd time I get salary..
But still not enough use...
Dunno where all the money goes...
I did plan a budget for myself...
But currently is out of my budget la...
Haiz...
Money.. Pls come back..
Dun go away!!

Monday, July 26, 2010

24/07/2010 - Convocation


24/07/2010

Is the last memory going to be in TARC...
Finally we graduated...
After the ceremony of getting our scroll on the stage...
My parent wait me outside and bought me a bouquet of flower...
Thx so much!!
Although my friends, brother and sister did'nt come but still thx to them...
After my parent gone back,
Me, wah , wen, howie and ren had took a lot of pics together with our coursemates...
After took pics, around 2pm...
Me and ren went to wen's hostel and took a bath for preparing go to Sunway Pyramid to meet Datuk...
We meet Datuk and his sister around 5 pm,
We had our lunch at korean street...
After lunch and chit chat...
We went back...

Here, want to thx datuk for teaching me in this 2 years...
Tell the truth..
30% of the reason I can smoothly graduated is bcoz of him..
Luckily he always teach us a lot of subject...
Since 1st sem...
Datuk, you are my good teacher!! Muacckksss^^

Okay, continue my story...
After that,
Me and ren went to Wen's house to have dinner...
This is the 3rd time I have dinner in Wen's house...
Thx wen's mum for the delicious dinner again...
Around 8.15pm...
Me and ren went back home...
I meet my family in Jusco for having a small celebration after that...
I only reach home around 11pm..
What a tired day~~

2 years are damn fast!!
These 2 years are really the most happiest part of my life I've gone trought until now...
Miss every moment so much..
When ever I was so tressful with my job...
My keep thinking of the life I had before in TARC...
My tears will rolling in my eyes...
Maybe just bcoz I haven't suite the life recently ba..
Without Wah n Aichin helping and teaching me to be matured...
Without Wen and others of our gang's laughter...
College life is very happy memory for me...
I learn a lot of things...
And I never ever going to forget it...

BlogSkin updated

Since before go Cherating till now...
I finally change my blog skin...
This time the theme is ***Blue Sky***
Bcoz dunno why since at Cherating,
Like to look at the sky...
The warm blue color sky with the white color cloud..
Make me feel very comfortable...
Every time look at the blue sky...
Feel everything frustrated and stressful stuff had gone...
Feel like wanna have a nice day...
So dunno since when I like to capture the sky...
Above pic oso captured by me..^^