*My Heaven - Big Bang*

Heard this song in seoul fm just now...

It's so weird that listening to this song with this kind of environment..

I used to listen to this song like 4 - 5 times a day..

Brought back all my memories in cherating...

We used to listen to this song in our old car looking at the star...

we even said this song was very annoying..

Keep listening to it like 24/7 for 3 months...

But it sound so unfamiliar to me when i listen to it again...

I miss the beach, the old car, the empty house..

every memories we had in Cherating..

Time just passed so fast like i didn't realized had been a year and a half...

We used to live together..

Cleaned our house together..

Had dinner together..

Do almost everything together!!

Now, 6 of us barely contact..

I even end up live in Manchester now..

What will happen to us another year and a half??

Wen, Howie, Ren, Zhe, Shell..

I miss u guys so much!!!

SomeBody

No matter where I go in this damn world..

There always times that where the only place i want to be is right next to you...

<3

Be yourself and STOP trying to be anyone else!

Lee JunHo.. My emperor!

CUTE!! HOT!! SEXY!!

I miss him so much..

Love his photoshoot for Singles Magazine..

Definitely exploding my ovaries..

Haha, as in tumlr says...

New Life in Manchester

Almost a week..

Everything's seems different here..

trying hard to get use to the environment here..

I know i shouldn't said this now..

But i really wanna go home!!

I miss my family, friends and the environment in Malaysia..

Need to keep remind myself the reason I've chosen this path for my future..

I need to prove everyone that i can be independent!!

Gonna start my class tomorrow..

I'm nervous..

So many question in my head..

can i make any new friends here?

will i understand what will going on tomorrow?

can i really survive the rest of the year???

Those questions driving me crazy!

maybe i just think too much..

I CAN DO IT! I CAN DO IT!

FRIENDSHIP

What do you mean by friendship??

Since people are so flexible and easy to change...

Is there any long last friendship???

For me,

Friendship was much bigger than everything...

So I appreciate everyone who willing to call me as friend...

But once they broke my heart..

It feels sucks and will leave a eternity scar...

Friendship only occur when we really do care about someone...

And that someone do care about us...

But what if only we care and willing to do everything without any feedback from them??

Is this also so call friendship??

For me,

YES!!

If I treat that person as a friend..

No matter how she treat me...

I still look him/her as a friend...

But for some person...

It was a useless sacrifice..

Trying to teach me how to be selfish and able to said "No"..

So,

Should I??

2010 Memories~

had been so long didn't update my blog...

Been like a year..

Well, it is a new year now...

Is 2011 now...

I was supposed to update the last post in 2010..

But I've forgotten..

Anyway, everything I need to said actually is the same though..

I wanted to write down what I had been through in year 2010.

For me, year 2010 was a fulled with experience year..

Kindly same like year 2008..

But experiences in year 2010 was kindly like an adult experience...

I had my internship,

I had my 1st permanent job,

I had my graduation,

I had my 1st salary,

I had my 1st touch screen phone^^

Although my favorite year is still year 2008, but year 2010 was not bad...

Except the part we graduate and had to be apart with my best friends...

Well, I can say that this year also the year where people started to change..

Change to be more matured...

In this new year...

2011, I'm going to be 21...

Is the time for me to turn adult...

I do really need to change...

I must be independent..

Even though sometimes I hate myself so much,

But I need to change myself to a better person...

I have a big target this year!

I want to be mature enough...

No matter what happen,

I need to be strong!

New life is coming...

如果有一天你想哭，打电话给我

如果有一天你想哭，打电话给我.... 只因为我们是好朋友...

一辈子的，送给我所有的好朋友。

我们之间有彼此才能开的玩笑

我们之间有彼此才能说得秘密好久没有联络，

并不是距离远了 好久没有消息，

并不是关心没了 从成为朋友那刻起

你就不曾远离 就注定扎根在我心里

其实朋友就是这样 无需想起

因为 从未忘记... 我的朋友, 爱你...

如果有一天你想哭，给我打电话，

我无法许诺让你笑，但是我可以跟你一起哭；

因为我们是朋友，所以我愿意分享你的悲伤与欢笑，

不要觉得这是打扰，这是友谊。

如果有一天你想远走高飞，给我打电话，我无法让你止步，但是可以和你一起飞

人生的旅途或许很孤单，因为我们是朋友，所以我愿意陪伴你，我愿意和你一起面对旅途中所有的困难。

如果有一天你谁的电话也不想听，给我打电话，我保证会到你身边，我还保证会一声不吭

就这样静静地倾听，偶尔可以做做你的出气筒，因为我们是朋友，所以我会很在乎你。

但是 如果有一天你打来电话，而没人接听，请赶紧过来看看我，也许我也需要你;

因为我们是朋友，友谊需要我们共同呵护，所以我哭了，你也要借你的肩膀让我依靠。

如果有段时间没有联系，并不是我将你遗忘，而是生活让我忙碌，其实我时刻惦记着你.......

不曾想起，因为从未忘记... 而你，我的朋友，你将一直存在于我心里那个很重要的位置，未曾动摇..

想和你做一生一世这样的朋友，想拥有一生一世都不变质的友谊，因为我们是朋友，所以......

请珍惜~~~~~~~~~~~~

DIET! DIET! DIET!

I decided to keep fit!!

I've already sign up a gym membership...

Is time for me to diet...

I want to wear beautiful dress..

I want to have a healthy body so that my children will be healthy...

So...

I MUST DIET ~ DIET ~ DIET ~

My sis said I won't stand for long...

I must prove to her that this time I'll insist my will...

I must control myself from my own strong desire...

GIVE ME 3 MONHTS...

By next year chinese new year I might wear different outfit from b4...

MiMi, Fighting!!!!

"When You Say Nothing At All"
By
Ronan Keating

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Used to listen this song while looking at the stars...
Listening to this song with a ocean waves as the background sound...
The feeling is so warm and relax...
Everything felt simple....
This is what I feel when I was in Cherating...

****
Today, listening to this song while waiting my mom in the bus stop at KL...
Looking at the traffic jam with a lots of hon as the background sound...
The feeling is so complicated and tired...
Everything felt very hard...
This is what I feel when I was in KL...

****
Suddenly miss the life in Cherating...
Although is quite tough at the beginning..
But I love the sea there...
I miss the free and relax life there...
Everyday just need to focus on training only...
Almost forgot that I have been there...

ღPangkor Trip ღ

02/10/2010
The 1st trip after graduate diploma...
We went to Pangkor Island...
I waited them at the bus station in Bukit Jalil around 8.15 am...
Around 8.40 am,
Wen, Wah, Sheng min and Howie reached and we off we go to Pangkor with our 9am bus...
We reach Lumut around 2pm..
We had our lunch in KFC at Lumut...
After lunch, we take some photos due to the weather is soooo nice^^
After our photo session,
Sheng min helped us buy the ferry tickets to Pangkor Island..
Never been ride a boat since I was very small..
Feel a bit uncomfortable in the beginning... But overall still ok la..
After 30 mins journey in ferry,
Finally we reach Pangkor...
The 1st impression is..
"OMG, this place is a village???"
The roads all is very narrow..
Almost can fit for motorcycle only...
Very rare to see a 4 wheel transport there accept for the taxi la..
We get a taxi to took us to Pasir Bogak...
To find a place to stay..
After tired survey all Resorts..
Finally we decided to stay in a Resort call "Sandy Beach Resort"...
**Must write here.. Is a VERY DAMN BAD SERVICE resort**
The manager is so rude to us and the services and facilities is so unprofessional!!
This Resort nearly ruined our nice trip!!!
Anyway, besides that the hotels room still ok la...
Just beh tahan the manager...
We check in around 4.30pm and we ask the resort to arrange a taxi for us to have a trip around Pangkor Island...
The taxi reach around 5pm and took us a 2 hour trip...
We went to 4 places..
I'm not so familiar with the names la..
But can see through pictures^^
After the trip,
We reach our resort around 7pm..
We went to beach to took some pictures..
And then me, Wen and Howie go swimming in pool....
While Wah and Sheng min bath in hotels room...
After we took turn bath,
Wah n Sheng min took us to a seafood restaurant to have dinner...
We meet Sheng min's frens there...
2 butler from PLR...
After dinner, we went to beach again to have a chat there...
I finally saw ‘蓝眼泪’ there...
Although not so obviously..
But really beautiful...
Saw a lot of couple at the beach there..
haha..
Saw a live show tim!! Wakaka...
Around 11pm, we went back to our hotels room...
Play some card games with Bryant and Ryan(Sheng Min's frens)...
Finally, around 1am we all sleep...
That night had a very heavy rain...
Anyway, our television off on 7.30 am due to 'some of us' said dun close the TV 1st coz too dark...
Haha... The manager sure gek dou sei if he noe we use he so much electricity...

I was the 1st who woke up on 8am in the morning...
After we all bath,
We went for our breakfast buffet..
Which are so not delicious..
Chang come n meet us and we had breakfast together...
After that, we went to beach again..
Took some photos again...
And then Wah suggest us to go for the last trip since the time is still early
Which is walk to Jambatan Gangtung..
We walk quite far into the jungle to reach there..
finally we give up due to the place is too dangerous and horror...
We went back to hotel rooms and realize me n wah kena bite by pacat in our leg...
Wah had 2 bandages in this 2 days trip...
Poor wawah~~
After clear everything,
we check out at 11.30 am and apart with Chang...
We sit ferry back to Lumut on 12.30pm and get into our bus to KL at 2pm...
Finally I reach home at 7pm...

After reach home oso no chance to rest,
My family drag me to have dinner outside...
Finally I have a sweet dream at 11.30 pm...

Luckily on Monday no need to work if not sure tired till die~~~
Really have fun in this trip...
Hope to have another trip again^^

不是不想恋爱，而是，不想随便的恋爱！

单身并没有什么不好，你一样可以关心你喜欢的人，这样可以让大众觉得你是一个很好的朋友；而恋爱中的人，关心别人则会引发醋意，从爱情观说也是对爱情不够 忠诚，但不关心别人则又失去很多友谊，一旦你分手了，就赔了夫人又折兵。所以现在单身，不是说你不向往爱情，而是证明你对未来的他的一份痴情。
　　
爱情晚点来，就不会走得太早。
　　
我们不需要靠失恋来成熟，我们应该利用别人失恋的经验成长起来。 一个优秀的人单身说明这人足够优秀，一个再优秀的人随意恋爱说明这人的优秀只是表面而已，真正希望对方好的，就是默默在背后关心对方。最好的承诺，不是爱你一万年，而是根本不需要承诺。
　　
学生时代，周围接触最多的人都年龄相仿，所以价值观都差不多，都想着将来有个好工作，有个好恋人。正因为理想差不多，所以两个人在一起会很开心，也就很容易走到了一起。至于恋爱是否会影响学习，这里就不说了，因为既有促进作用，也有消极作用，因人而异。
　　
恋人不是靠寻找的，因为在没有完全了解对方之前，对方可以为了吸引你暂时改变自己，而一旦你完全了解对方后，分手就指日可待了。所以恋爱应该是日久生 情，彼此非常熟知后自然地走在一起，甚至无需表白。不要认为对方人很好就轻易妥协，人好不是爱情的全部，你们必须为爱情的将来做打算。
　　
如果遇到一个你深爱的女孩，而你感觉她也喜欢你，大部分的人都是直接就开始交往了。这样做的后果就是前面所说的，最后失去一个深爱的人。你应该以朋友 的名义关心她，在毕业后仍保持联系，然后为了她努力工作。当你在事业上有所成就后再去找她，如果此时她仍在等你，说明你没看错人。
　　
女孩，如果一个男生他很快就喜欢上妳，那么他以后也会很快就喜欢上别人的。 在学校里的爱情是无知的，在社会中的爱情可能是有目的的，只有遇到逆境仍走下去的爱情才是永恒的。
　　
爱情不是和一个最适合自己的人在一起，而是遇到一个更适合自己的人时，能够坚守自己对所爱的人作出的承诺。爱情不是两个人眼睛对视，而是两个人的眼光看着同一个方向投视。
　　
网上的“爱你，为你做这些事”看起来很感人，因为大部分人都不是这种爱情。爱情不是一种潮流，你要有自己的看法，在你的理想恋人未出现时，你要有毅力选择一直单身，而不是找个替代品。当你做到后，网上传的那些事，在你的爱情中是再基本不过的了。
　　
男生，在谈恋爱时不要抱着不适合就分手的想法，一定要慎重地考虑清楚，女朋友就是你未来的老婆，结婚只不过是多一张无用的纸而已，结婚并不是为爱情加 了锁，真正的爱情从来就不需要任何的束缚。一旦你选择了恋爱，就要有一种责任感，你要为你父母的儿子、你老婆的丈夫、你未来孩子的爸爸负责！
　　
虽然分手是另一段爱情的重新开始，但初恋只有一次，一个人在初恋中对爱情的向往是最多的，而一旦恋爱失败，以后的每一次恋爱中，最难忘的还是初恋。
　　
所以，不是不想恋爱，而是，不想随便的恋爱！

True!!^^

难过了，不要告诉别人，因为别人不在乎！

难过了，不要告诉别人，别人永远都不可能明白在你的立场上的感受难过了，静静的蹲下来抱着自己，让眼泪尽情的洒落难过了，拿着镜子 看看此刻的自己，让真实浮现眼前难过了，默默的将自己隐藏起来，让空虚掩盖一切难过了，闭眼倾听周围的声音，让自己沉浸在喧嚣中难过了，不必告诉别人，自 己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢难过了，可以假装快乐，和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己难过了，仍然安慰别的伤心者，你会发现自己也在受益，当局者迷而已 ，难过了，听音乐，就让音乐把它带走有谁不曾难过，有谁还会记得过去的不再从来 又何必去苦想 忘掉… 用微笑渲泄悲伤...

自己的伤悲除了自己别人永远体会不到，心里的烦恼自己压下去，好好对自己，来到这个世界不容易，让自己洒脱一点，哪怕是假装的，也要伪装成快乐的那一个...^^

MiMi：“如果伪装到很痛苦呢？那怎么办？？”

Finally I found this song^^

Finally~~
Find this song for very long time aldy..
Love it since the 1st time I heard in One Fm..
But dunno who sang it..
Now I finally knew..
Is a handsome, talented guy sing it...
(can't upload his MV.. So sad..T.T)

我喜歡， 不我愛 - 嚴爵
作詞：嚴爵
作曲：嚴爵

我喜歡妳的眼 看著我的眼
我喜歡妳的臉 貼著我的臉

我喜歡妳的手 牽著我的手
我喜歡妳的口 吻著我的口
時間在改變 妳不要改變

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

時間在改變 妳不要改變

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

L.O.V.E

Some one ask me this..

“当你寂寞的时候，你会不会爱上不该爱上的人？”

Erm.. I dunno..

What is love I still dunno..

Sometimes feelings are confusing..

I answered the person who ask me..

“当我寂寞的时候，我会想念我的好朋友。。呵呵”

What I noe is..

I love my family and friends...

So，I'm still waiting for some one to prove me what is the meaning of love...

^^